"i have always been the type of person to wrap myself in an “i don’t care” attitude and pretend i don’t care, pretend i have no feelings. because i’m scared. i’m so fucking scared of giving my feelings to people and watching them crush me. you become scared. you learn shame, because you begin to think people have the right to hurt you and to use your emotions and feelings against you. so you hide your feelings out of shame. it doesn’t mean you’re heartless. it means you’ve been hurt.
however, i am also someone who believes in complete honesty. and even though i’ve always been the type of person to hide my heart, i’m starting to realize that it won’t make me happy. ever. we need to unlearn the shame. i understand where the shame is coming from, but it won’t lead us anywhere. we have to let ourselves get hurt. we have to let ourselves bleed. we have to give people our hearts. they might crush us. we might feel ashamed. we might feel like we deserve it. but we have to do it if we ever want to go anywhere in life"